when people love someone, they know that there will be alot of emotional waste.
but we still do that every moment. we are made to love somebody.
as i said before, i’m a person who falls in love really easily.
maybe i’m a real loveholic.
thesedays, i stop to date and i fall in love again.
not date, but love someone is really crazy and painful thing.
i asked to myself, why i have to stop to date?
actually i promised with someone that i would not date for a year.
damn… but you are too weak to handle that…
i know i’m too weak to be independent person.
Or i made myself to be a weak person
whatever, i really don’t want to be a friend with him
that night when he hugged me.. my heart leaped up 
and now i’m worried about missing him. because i will not date with him firmly.
i will discipline me not to date, not to be hurt.
now i’m struggle because of that. and now i’m already hurt because of that..
sometimes i want to be an old woman.
